Have you ever felt—or thought—that you were happier in another country, more specifically, the country you grew up in? Now that many Latin American countries are thriving—granted there are some exceptions—do you think about going back to your home country? I grew up in Peru and after finishing high school moved to the US to attend St. Mary's University. While in college, I decided to return to Peru after graduation; I imagined I'd find a well-paying job with my American degree. Though I was offered a couple of jobs that could have potentially turned into a successful career, after a couple of years in Peru I decided to go back to America and pursue the writing career I had dreamt of. Five years later—living in the US and working as a writer—I longed to go back to Peru; I missed my family, friends, dog, the food, and walking the streets that made me feel I was home. So I moved to Peru and though I did feel I was back home, after a few years part of me missed America. Perhaps it was either its orderliness or the perception of having more opportunities to succeed, not only professionally but also personally, that motivated me to go back to US, once again. Now I feel as if I juggle life in the American Peruvian hyphen, holding on to the best of the two countries and avoiding the worst of what they have to offer. Is this too much to ask for? Have you ever felt of going back to a country you left, but haven't done so because of responsibilities or the fear of failure? If so, how have you managed to let go of your other life?
Truth is that many of Latin American countries are still not well developed and their governments are still sketchy, although I considerate Mexico to be an alternative since my parents live there, I can tell you last time I was there, I saw a lot of poverty and injustices. "The women of Juarez" case in 1993 has still not being resolved for the past 20 years and the death of more than 400 young ladies has not been cleared. Truth is as much i love my country, food, music and culture, we still need progress and education so that the people that live there feel safe. Look at Venezuela now...who would imagine all the turmoil, and that's just the beginning. If I were you, I would just stay and make a living here. As long as you are able to go to Peru often for vacation then you should be happy! ;)
Thanks for your suggestion Enrique, you use solid arguments in favor of America. I think you are right, but truth is I'm fond of Peru. Moreover, I remember all the good times with my family and friends and sometimes hope they could return some way or another. Perhaps I'm a romantic, or maybe I just have to focus more on the present, rather than the past.
I would venture to say you are home sick. You long the closeness of your loved ones and the warmness that familiar proximities provides you. Don't dwell on the unavoidable and embrace your current status. There is a reason you keep returning to the U.S. Unfortunately I can't relate to you as I arrived to the U.S. when I was only 8 years old, but I sometimes do wonder how life would be back in Ecuador. I guess home is where your heart beats. Don't fight it, acknowledge your love for both countries and make the best of it. It sounds like you have made a life here and there. Safe Sailing!
Thanks for your kind words Jess.